broken engine : poetry

20041127

: post war lullabye :

ashes in her hands
blown up, blown down
under allied skies
she won't sleep tonight
run down the rubble
run down the street
run down the loss
of you and me

babes cry
dreams die
for distortions of love
wicked lies
in fictitious times
can we not see
a way to human kindness
for in our blindness
we eat our own

history lies
awake tonight
so soothe it to sleep
with soft light
with songs of hope
spin tales of starlight
in smokeless skies

ashes on your head
tuned in, toned down
under allied skies
you won't lose sleep tonight, so
with fierce kindness
build them strong
for sadly, surely
darkness always comes

awake tonight
are you awake tonight?

20041126

: reverse engineering :

i question everything
everything is wrong by definition
entropy in repetition
you don't know anything
it pauses me in hindsight premonition
my static heart is fission

our bitter harmony
i know that it sounds very done before
i guess i just expected more
the peak of all we'd won
now stillness, all is done
we're making plans in realtime
but we're only burning karma

when i close my eyes you always reappear
it's not like you to cave and say you're sorry
where's your finish line? it's never been down here
and i've been waiting for a likely story
there's no answers
just disasters
i build disasters

the world will wait for me
or so i thought when i was feeling lucid
but i was only young and stupid
errors have been made
others will be blamed
i know what i want and that equates to nothing

When i close my eyes i always disappear
its not like me to cave and say i'm sorry
where's my finish line? it's never been down here
and i've been thinking of a likely story
there's no answers
just disasters
i build disasters

20041125

: daylight savings time again :

interstellar jetleg
daylight savings time again
stuttered syncopated streetlights
where does morning start and end?

kaleidoscopic pipebombs
we shut our eyes against the light
as we sink gently in the ice storm
the sound will get us through the night

fall back / spring forward / fall back

anesthetia caused confusion
another hour of sleep my friends
stuttered streetlights fall together
daylight savings time again

fall back / spring forward / fall back

20041124

: part 2 :

you are myth
a second coming
revert back
your mouth solves everything
my heart hits the floor
recovery
disappointment is the past
when your eyes are on me
they're like quasars
they make my tongue break
i am bourne through
burning brilliant
a pull like no other
default setting
i am speechless

: relief :

sometimes you get a glimpse of what things will be
how they will all fall when they come floating down
i want nothing more than to leave where i am
i want nothing more than to get closer
closer to where things will end up
it's one of those days where you sit still
but you feel like things are running
it's one of those times when you don't mind
you wish someone would just reach out
because you'd just collapse and melt
these feelings are old
every moment
every second
i ask all of these things of you
don't be afraid
nothing to worry about ever again
everything is thick
like dream
everything might just come true
it will be more than you can take
like a promise
that you could never make
like a promise
that you wished forever would make
relief is a better feeling
than anything else i know
sometimes you can see glimpses of it in someones eyes
thats better than anything else
ever