: lullabye bye :

a brief synopsis of everything ever
sing me a song
I don't want the start to end
winding through a thick forever
slicing time into small pieces, easy to swallow
a slight rememberence of little occurance
sing me a song, dear
sorrow is nothing sweet, remember
so we'll go dancing as we drown
and leave them no penance to hang us on
beginning to forget everything again
dancing through death
leaving me softness neverlasting
taken through tears and lead faded
a sweet shadow of passages, dances
and the ecstasies of a former light

: timeline :

the inevitable loss of disentanglement
i think it is finally time to move on.
i just hope i make it through this one.
i was a catalyst
your escape
i poured my dreams through our time
to reflect themselves in your eyes
that our hands would bond forever
to the time the fates arrive
to face this night together
until the sudden morning sighs
remember the fourth time we committed our deaths
how we hung like tinsel from a tree
remember the stammer step explosions
that always brought us around
to days of cocaine and rain
and the rigid curve of our backs
we were spilling through the lines
trying desperately to connect
so glistening, ending
testing for our footsteps
and if we left none
then we were gods
but we'll never ever make it there

did you fall into beauty with crashes and waves
or did it wrap around you like a slow winding sheet
where were you when the rest of us grew flaws
while you seem to deepen perfection with movement
you're a traitor
and you will stand alone
i'll make my charts and diagrams
i'll find the equation for light
to explain you
to explain myself without you

you aren't so easy to figure out
faking life, growing older
you'll never be old
everything is everything
science
and forming the new alchemy
obtuse subtlety, intimate technologies
words became oceans
limitless
I ching
conform conspire
experiences forgotten
inspired syntax
forgive me my oceans of unknowing
i try every day
but if i don't understand
the better

she said “dear you, its through
you waste every trace of me”
where will I be while she's launching ships
how fragile we've become
drifting through cathode rays
shallow breathing
putting hope on fatalist optimism
confuse and take apart
a study in repetition
insert the exhale
keep each second

frantic
will she see what i mean
when i say
i thought everything would be okay
where were you anyway
we were the math
the variable in the balance

i'm trying now to make the best of very bad things
making sense of situational irony
i won't say anything, i don't have to
and i won't step around our vanity
conversations, echoes, they're all hollow
reflecting answers, faking everything
i'm getting too old to pretend
that this is what i want
bodies thicker, nothing sacred
there's not enough light to feel
but we can pretend
spoken equations to fake feelings
the formula was forgotten
so why aren’t you
i'm too young for dead contempt
and too old to care

will you say anything
before taking a breath
or just wait
for the moment, tenuous
to break
i can almost taste you on my tongue
i held the secret to all this
but you melted, just before you landed
and never returned

now that you've found someone
who you can pour out to
can you tell me what i'm doing
still attached to you
now that you've realized
that all you had to do
was find someone to tell you
what i already knew...

don't you understand me
can't you be a part of this
waiting
too late
the time has slipped
through accidents and failings
what were you thinking
mistakes in speaking
one act trauma

binary
gibberish in epic proportions
mixing potions, growing machines
the new future of nothing
right now
reset everything
the end 00 the end 00 the end 00
it repeats, it goes on
looping taunting losing coherence
the network is failing, nothing is connecting
reset
final 00 final 01 final 11 final 10
transcend