: rebuke pt 2 :

anger doesn't suit
your petit frame
you should learn to deal with it better
these toils and troubles
you brought upon yourself
rash decisions
feeding back now
and i'm sure there are more on the horizon
although i won't bear witness to them
anymore
there are new witness/victims
for your calamity
as there always will be
until you open your eyes

are your ears burning
as mine have been?
frustration is a cold, bitter meal
and I've been forced to feast on it well
but sometimes
its better than starving
so tuck in
or waste away
your cornucopia was discarded
without so much
as a second thought
so beggar
you can't be a chooser

: rebuke pt 1 :

mistaking lust for love again
everything seems real and forever
at first blush
but when the slightest ripple
brings you back to reality
your fear of abandonment
will win out as it always has
as it always will
until you confront it
another heart broken
another year wasted
another part of your soul
lost forever
"they say breaking up
is hard to do"
but not for you
waking up is hard to do
your vanity keeps you under
with 50% power

: morning fog on a sunny day :

memories and feelings
long cherished
fading away like tendrils of smoke
your headlights cutting through and burning
precipitation unrequited
precipitating something unrequired
unsearched for
unusually invigorating
i hold back, but not forever

KAOS breakfast conversations
hammering out details and positions
a blink, a smile, a glance over sunglasses
a flash of green pins breath in chest
and blood in veins
tentative plans for the future
and if they're broken, that's ok
a smile, a kiss
a bike ride home
i realize that i didn't look over my shoulder
to see if she was around
for the first time in months